Updated: Jan 11, 2021
So...I broke my foot. Only 5 days ago, but it seems like eons already. (Originally written on the 14th of January).
Feelings of anger, frustration, disappointment, shame (I was LITERALLY just walking down the street - not even anything cool or fun, like ice skating or something! LOL), sadness, self-pity...all of it, surged thru me on and off for the first couple days. To be expected, yes? Fair? I'm only human, right? The negative self-talk was pretty loud in here...oh, and then there's the physical pain of it all.
But luckily, all my meditation practices and mindfulness training and yogic thinking prevailed. ✌ And quite frankly, when you spend an entire life with the name, Miracle, you kinda start out with a different perspective on things. At least I did. So thankfully, I've been able to SURRENDER. To be appreciative and maybe even excited about what this journey could mean for me. If nothing else, curious. 😜 It seems that, if you choose, in moments like these when all your plans get kicked to the curb, your obligations have to be tweaked or even cancelled, and your expectations of yourself are laughable, all you're left with is HUMILITY AND GRATITUDE.
Not a bad exchange, if you ask me. 💖 It's an opportunity to be even MORE vulnerable, to ask for help and practice RECEIVING it, to REST and learn to be PATIENT...especially with yourself, it's an invitation to GO SLOW in this ridiculously fast-paced world, and maybe most importantly - an invitation go INWARD. And I am TRULY eager to learn these lessons once and for all (although probably not completely)! Haha (as you know, the universe loves to give you a bunch of opportunities in a bunch of different ways to like...REALLY get something. And until you do, she'll keep delivering).
All that to say, THANK YOU to my hubby and family and friends and collaborators and students and clients and fellow teachers and leaders and doctors and nurses and staff who have already shown up so beautifully. I'm SO lucky and SO appreciative.
Okay, well...I've got about 5 or so weeks left of this journey, so I'm sure they'll be another update or twenty in the process. Thanks for caring, thanks for reading. Xoxo
POST #2: a poem, by a non-poet...here goes nothin'
Doctors - they sure don't tell us everything, at least not all at once.
Patients - we should realize it rhymes with "patience"...if we don't, we're kind of a dunce.
Healing...one little bone bridge at a time.
Healing...my heart of the grease and grime.
Shame, Frustration, Disappointment & Maybe a Little Bit of Fear.
Faith, Rest, Love & Acceptance...a couple more months and we're in the clear.
It'll be be 4 weeks this Thursday - only 2 or 3 of these left to go.
Thank you for reading & caring & sharing - down the river of life we row.